i married my girlfriend

Last weekend, I was honored to perform a marriage.

Somehow, I always knew one day I would do something like this. For those who know me well, they know that to do this was completely within my character.

I am thankful for this experience because it was a catalyst for reconnection with my true self. I don't know why I let my true-self atrophy, but I did. The past week, I have been very glad to see myself again...happy to spend some time exlusively with myself.

I'm still in the process of seeing myself, and this has been a difficult thing for me. I'm disgusted with my body and the habit I developed of yea-saying...disgusted that I have attracted manipulative people into my life again, and that I have allowed them to manipulate me.

I see that I sorely need to shun caring for others right now and care for myself.

Looking forward to conversations with friends I haven't seen in years.